I just asked baby if he would patch with me.
He says he need some time to think.

Actually, no matter his answer,
I already set my mind to love him forever.
Till I grow old & die.
It doesn't matter if i won't get married to him
it doesn't matter if he marry someone else.
I just need to know he is happy & doing well.

If his answer is yes,
I'm really happy to be attached to him.
& would love him fervently.

BUT if his answer is no,
I'll be sad.
But I would still love him,
just silently.

I dont want to torture him or make him sad.
All I want is for him to be happy,
it doesn't matter if he will be with me or not.
Cos I really love him so nothing else matters not even how i feel.
I finally understand this after all these days.
& in fact I feel so light now.
Cos finally I know. Him being sad makes me sad.
Him being happy makes me happy.